HopeK429

I’ve been a wreck today. Not going to lie. I feel like I had my heart ripped out of my chest and shoved back down my throat. That’s the only way I know how to describe it. We had a free day today, so we spent the morning flying over and dropping off some donated supplies to folks in tents and campers in NC. Making sure those that have been affected are stocked up prior to the frigid temperatures and heavy snows coming in. Sometimes it’s hard not to feel intrusive walking into someone’s space that has lost everything and what little they still are holding onto is their private spaces..Today I walked up to a familiar face that I’ve seen at a drop off picking up supplies several times since the storm. While seeing him there in the past I had spoken to him and ask how he was etc, but , I’ve never asked his story. It’s none of my business. And to be honest it's so unfair to have some of these people relive and retell their stories over and over again, some it helps , some it pushes even farther into hopelessness and that was the last thing I would want to cause anyone,Many people that come through and pick up dropped off supplies just have a look in their eyes, and they can tell you their story without saying a word.The looks that reach down in you soul and just shake you awake, But this man has always had a smile no sad look in his eyes just a look of thankfulness for being here . Today I was exactly where I was supposed to be. And that just happened to be on his property by the river. He opened up on his own to me, told us his story, to he told us about the wicked day of September 27th. He showed us around his land. He took us into his once beautiful home that they worked so hard to make their own that is unlivable and will be for quite sometime,. He showed us his camper that was donated to him that he and his family of 4 are living in. He introduced us to his wife and daughters. He told us about his baby that was on the way, but didn’t have a heartbeat anymore a couple weeks after the storm. He introduced me to his dog “River”. Believe it or not, he’s only a few months old and probably 75 pounds already,, Finally, before we left, he took us to the far end of his property to a storage shed that made it through the storm. The only time this man cried is when he started telling us about his wife’s Christmas ornament business and how they’ve worked so hard on it over the years. Tears were streaming down his face as he was telling us , he how they've missed the busy season, and won’t be able to sell ornaments this year. I firmly believe there are times in life that we are placed exactly where we’re supposed to be. Today was that day for us, Because of donations to a group there in NC , and with an agencies help they were able to get on Amazon and buy them every single shipping supply that they need to get their business back up and running before Christmas. The guys sending a crew over there this week to turn their storage shed into a temporary packaging center. Complete with a Starlink. Hopefully by December 10th, I’ll be able to introduce you to this family, and everyone of you are going to be able to purchase the prettiest dang Christmas ornaments you’ve ever bought. It’s never too late. Keep on fighting.By talking to them the second time today, I learned that they are perfectionist. They were very hesitant to let anyone get them set back up. They lost 80% of their inventory and were worried that they wouldn’t be able to get out orders before Christmas and didn’t want to upset anyone. we all tried to tell them and make them understand that nobody is going to give a shit if their ornament doesn’t arrive until Christmas 2025.,People just wanted to see them get their business back up and running,,donations can do so so much for these families , housing , clothing a way to stay warm and even a way to put some hope for the future in their hearts and some Christmas spirit to get then thru the holidays, I've always said you never meet anyone by accident , they are put in your path for a reason and today was just one of those days for us,, Sometimes all people need is Hope and Faith that things will be better tomorrow , and something we could all enforce in our lives :)

There are very few things left in this world that remind me of my childhood .. but this remains:) I remember my Nana making us egg salad sandwiches all summer long and always on hotdog buns.. We didn’t have much … quite frankly , by most accounts we were poor!! But I didn’t know that!! I didn’t know that hotdog buns were for hot dogs only and that garlic bread was frozen in a box;) Today I had a loaf of Fresh , white bread along side that were these cheap dollar general hot dog buns I had bought last week … I chose the buns because that’s how I was raised!!! And as I sat down to eat my nostalgic egg salad sandwich, I thought about my kids … This world and a lot of people around them are offering white bread .. the norm, the traditional way, the things the world finds acceptable … but I pray as they go thru life , and they get the choice to choose .. they choose hot dog buns every time:) Btw .. this post is not about buns nor bread …

In case you haven't heard yet..The Trump administration is about to declare a national State of Emergency soon..and use our military to implement a mass deportation .People are running scared for fear of being deported, crying in the streets they say, but I could care less, cries or no cries..I just don't care because again this is one of the reasons I voted this year,my first time voting in my entire life, never been political but what has went on the last 4 years could no go another 4 years..The US is smack dab in the middle of a humanitarian crisis, so you that voted for Harris wanna talk about women's rights?? Alright let's talk about them.All of them like the rights that All American women have the right to feel safe in their own communities, to not have their future stolen from them by anyone who shouldn't have been here in the first place, do you know Laken Riley fought for her life for over 17 minutes? 17 Long minutes..so tell me again how I didn't vote for women's rights..oh but wait I did just not the supposed rights most think I did. Enforcing and securing our nations sovereignty is pro woman .Every single woman in this country deserves the right to walk down the street without having to worry that someone here illegally is lurking around the corner to murder or rape them, we already have enough criminals to deal with on our own without adding millions of illegals to it. We don't need other countries sending us theirs too. If the left actually cared about women's rights, then they would join forces with us to ensure that no Illegal immigrant with a violent history steps foot onto US soil..but they don't we have laws, we have a supposed system doesn't mean it's perfect and it could always be improved, but we lock our doors at night to protect the people inside, and the same should go for our country . I f people wanna com here to live they should have to do it the right way, and if they can't or won't , Deport them all. ! Wake up people..
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Sometimes when people come back saying that they miss you, they're confessing that they've discovered that no one can love them the way you did. 
They once took you for granted and treated your love like a common thing. Then they tried replacing you, and they were shocked at how impossible it was.
Now they're crawling back, hoping you're still stuck where they left you and you're desperate enough to allow them back.
Whenever people return, always remember how they left.
The way someone treats you when they no longer need you is a true reflection of how much they respect you.
When you feel like you miss that connection, just remember the disrespect. 
You may not have moved on to another person, but you have moved onto something more important. That’s self-respect!!
Just because you're not with someone doesn't mean you're still vacant. 
You're a complete person by yourself, and you have the right to take your time to heal and regroup.
If someone else has been flipping one relationship after another, it just shows how uncomfortable they are by themselves. 
If they need so much support just to face existence, they have a deeper problem. 
Never become the plug-in when someone has failed at replacing you.
They will never value you, and their resentment towards you will multiply because, in a sense, you'll have beaten them. 
They will continue looking while still with you. You’re basically a placeholder. Eventually, they'll leave you for people who don't challenge them to change or grow.
In short, it's also self care when you shut your doors to inconsistent people. You may have a history with them, but when they prove themselves unworthy of where you're going, it's a wrap.
Sometimes your feelings can't think and you have to think for them
People treat you exactly how they feel about you, a reflection of their heart,Don't be blind to the truth, though love and hope may play a stubborn part.
Their actions reveal their priorities, and the value they place on you,A harsh reality check, cutting through denial, and all that's untrue.
If they dismiss, disregard, or disrespect, it's time to open your eyes,Their behavior speaks louder than words, a resounding, painful surprise.
Don't rationalize or make excuses; their treatment is a telling sign,Of how they view your worth, and the space you occupy in their mind.
Pay attention to the patterns, the consistency of their ways,For people show you who they are, every day, in every phase.
Don't settle for less than respect, or tolerate abusive display,Your worth demands better; listen to their actions, and walk away.
Their treatment is a mirror, reflecting their true intentions and heart,Believe it, and protect yourself; your well-being is a brand new start.
The truth may sting, but facing it frees you from toxic, harmful ties,Embracing reality, you rise stronger, and open doors to healthier skies. Until someone treats you right, you will keep on believing that it’s normal for busy people to fail to show you how much they value you. You will keep on buying the excuses. You will keep on compromising. You will keep on putting your mental health aside. You will keep on believing that there are a lot of things that are more important than you.
Until someone shows up and makes you feel weird for how right you’re being treated, until someone does things for you without asking,  until someone makes a way to see or hear you against the circumstances, until someone proves to you that it’s possible to hustle and still have time to check on you, remember you, and reassure you that you matter everyday,
Until someone treats you right, you’ll never learn that people make time for things that matter to them. People find ways for the people they love. And if you’re loved, you’ll learn this even without trying. 
If you’re loved, you won’t even wonder if you’re loved.