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I feel like Dorothy, right after Toto pulled back the curtain, and reviled the REAL whizard of oz was not great or powerful. He was just a mere mortal with the same flaws as anyone else,and not the GREAT AND POWERFUL WIZARD OF OZ. It seems when we put or heros on too high of a platform, it makes a terrible mess when they come crashing off and shatter into pieces. It has become more apparent to me that trust is an illusion, ith lots of smoke, and curtains to cover the real truth behind the curtains. Once the curtain is pulled back and you see the truth, there is no way to unsee it.

Why You Should Cry - 5 Reasons to Let It All Out

Nobody likes to cry, especially in front of others. Crying often times leaves individuals feeling vulnerable and at times even broken down or weak. However, when it comes to crying there is nothing to be ashamed of. In fact, crying offers many different health benefits that may cause some to argue that we should be crying more often.Five Health Benefits of Crying Here are five amazing health benefits of crying.
Crying can improve your moodHave you ever noticed that you generally feel much better after you’ve had a good cry? There’s a reason for that. When we cry we are actually relieving our body of countless toxins and hormones that contribute to elevated stress levels. This in turn can help individuals to sleep better, strengthen their immune systems, and avoid gaining weight. By lowering our stress levels, crying may also help lower our blood pressure.
Crying can improve your vision. How do you feel after a busy day when you haven’t had a chance to drink much water? Chances are you’re pretty thirsty and perhaps a bit dehydrated. Our bodies require water to keep us going and to help us stay hydrated. Our eyes aren’t much different from the rest of our bodies; they too, need water to stay hydrated. When we cry we are really helping to re-hydrate our eyes which can help increase our ability to focus our eyes and improve our overall vision.
Crying can help protect your eyes. Every day we expose ourselves to thousands, if not millions, of particles of dust, dirt, and other debris. These particles are often too small for us to see, however, they can and do make their way into our eyes. This can cause irritation and potentially harm our eyes and in turn, our vision. When we cry, our eyes are actually cleansing themselves which can help to remove these irritants and protect our eyes. In addition, tears contain lysosomes, a powerful anti-bacterial chemical that helps fight infection.
Crying can help clean our noses, too Very few people realize it, but our tear ducts are actually connected to the insides of our nose. This means, when we cry, we get the same benefit of flushing out bacteria and irritants from our noses as we do with our eyes.
Crying can strengthen our relationships with others Yes, crying does make us feel more vulnerable and we often try to avoid crying in front of others at all costs. When we can’t hold it in any longer though, we are often left feeling ashamed or embarrassed. However, crying in front of others shouldn’t be viewed as a bad thing.When we cry in front of others we are inviting them to see a different side of us. They can see our feelings and emotions in a way that no words can portray. This can create a deeper emotional bond between family, friends, and those around us.So, next time you feel your lip begin to quiver and your eyes begin to fill, don’t hold it in! Let it all out and enjoy all of the health benefits those tears have to offer!

I found this interesting. And considering my eye doctor says my vision is great for someone my age I am wondering how much crying has to do with it. I do a lot of crying. My feelings are hurt very easily, and crying it out is much better in my mind then letting all my anger erupt. I can be quite evil when I am hurt or angry. If I have a good cry bu the time I am done crying I do not feel the anger so intensely. Unfortunately sometimes the hurt feelings never fully leave. If this article is correct it is a good thing to have a good cry if you feel you need one.

I still have not gotten that last tee, because I am not sure i want to know anymore. IF the clot is gone ( which i doubt it will be) the plan is to schedule the ablation of that left atrium. The more I think about it the more I worry that If I were to go along with the ablation of the left atrium if the doctor would do something deliberately to necessitate a pace maker. The meds they have me on now and the fact I lost 30 lbs have helped to control the heart issues.I find myself thinking more and more about maybe just folding and learning to live with it.
If I did try for the ablation and it went bad I would never be able to have an even semi normal life. I would be afraid of everything, but if i get the tee and find the clot is still there it stands a pretty good chance of being calcified, and would probably not be going anywhere so all I would need to do is make sure I did not get anymore.
The whole thing is really depressing. When this all started I was told I was a prime candidate for this , and now it looks like all my hopes and dreams of a more normal life were for nothing.
Oh well like I tell people God has a plan for everyone and it may not be what we wished it to be, but it is the way he wants it to be. I firmly believe nothing in this world is random , everything is meant to happen as it does. If I am meant to have a blood clot the rest of my life so be it. I always wanted to live to be 100, but that is not likely. I am not happy about not making it to 100 , but it may not be in the plan. I just wish I had something to leave behind so people years from my death would know I had existed.