goddess_of_retribution

     It just came to me this morning that Karma will equalize everything, but she will do it in her own time.   Yes I said she.   I believe Karma is a female, because given the right insensitive she can be especially brutal.
     Let’s take the case that came to my mind this morning.    I was making ready to wrap some Christmas presents, and memories of Christmases past came to my mind.   One really bad Christmas in the 1990's comes to mind as the second worst Christmas ever.   They had just finished remodeling my house and I had planned to have the family Christmas party at in my newly remodeled home.   We had not had a family Christmas party sense my mother’s death in 1989.   My house is not as big as my siblings, but I live alone so it is fine for me.   That year I moved things out of my living room so I could bring in a banquet table and chairs for the meal.   I paid for everything and did nearly all the work myself.  My neighbors daughter helped me bake a checkerboard cake (I did this for my niece that requested we have the party.)  It took 5 hrs to mix bake and frost.   The niece that requested the party arrived late but she made her ham gravy (she makes ham gravy that is not salty).  
     I had told them all the meal would go on the table at 1 pm.   I had everything timed perfectly so we could start eating at 1 pm.  Fifteen minutes till 1 my brothers thought it would be a good idea to run to the mall.   I still do not know what was so important they had to go right that minute.   The meal went on the table at 1 as scheduled and the boys were gone.   It had been a long standing custom to allow the boys and the little kids to eat first and the girls and the older kids would eat second because the table was never big enough for everyone to eat at one time.   When I said where are the boys and were told they had went to the mall, I said they knew what time the meal was going on the table and they left so we are not waiting on them we will eat and they can eat second sitting when they get back.   When they came in they were shocked to see all the seats filled and us eating.   My oldest brother said you did not wait on us?    I said Hell no we did not wait I told you when the meal was starting and you left so now you get to eat second setting.   There was a series of other things I will not go into that annoyed me  including my niece putting salt and pepper she had pored onto her hand on my plate, and when the meal was done wrapping paper being balled up and thrown around the room.   Even though I had told them to stop throwing the balls of paper 3 times, because I was worried they would knock my spun glass hearts that someone special had given me that year, off my tree they did not stop till I left the room crying.   Now keep in mind the youngest person at my party was 6 and the oldest one was in her 50's and only 1 person stopped the first time I told them to.   The others never stopped till I left the room crying and my sister in law told them we need to clean this up.   They listened to her but disrespected me in my own home.   
     I tried to talk to some of them later about how they had made me feel only 1 apologized at the time another has sense apologized, but my sister and my other sister in law acted like what they did was ok and they never apologized.   My sister tried to rationalize her behavior.   She never just says I am sorry I messed up.   This hurt me so bad I told them all I WILL NEVER HAVE THE CHRISTMAS PARTY AT MY HOUSE AGAIN SENSE YOU DISRESPECTED ME IN MY OWN HOME.
    Last year Karma finally showed my sister in law how it feels to put all kinds of work into something and then have no one care what you did to try to make them happy.   The Christmas party was at my sister’s house last year, and my sister in law prepared a craft project for the little kids LIKE SHE DOES EVERY YEAR,   It is important to make it clear she does this EVERY year.   My sister had bought a bounce house with ball pit for her granddaughter’s birthday 2 days before the party, and they decided to set it up at the party.   They did this BEFORE my sister in law had a chance to make her craft (she had worked so hard on) with the kids.   After a while she picked up the box of craft things and put them with the stuff she was taking home.   My brother asked her why she was doing that.   She told him there was no way she would get the kids calmed back down to work on it after them playing in the bounce house ball pit slide thing.   My sister in law was very hurt, and I felt really bad for her at the time.   I made a point of telling my sister later what had happened and that I did not think she should have set the bounce house up till AFTER the craft.   She tried to say she did not know my sister in law had a craft project.   Did I mention she does this EVERY YEAR?   HOW THE HELL COULD SHE NOT HAVE KNOW?   It was not she did not know it was that she wanted to show off what she had got her granddaughter for her birthday, and did not care about anyone else's feelings.   I really wanted to cry at the time because my sister in law had done all that work and then did not get to use it.   I doubt my sister in law will ever make crafts for the kids again.   When she gets hurt it sticks inside her.   She is not like me I will tell you if you hurt me she keeps it bottled up inside.
     It was only this morning nearly a year after it happened that I realized that happening to my sister in law after her putting so much work into the project and no one cared she did not get to use it was Karma letting her feel how I felt when I put so much work into that Christmas party and no one cared.     Karma will not fix things in our time she does it in her own time, but it will get settled.   So be careful how you treat others.   IT WILL COME BACK ON YOU WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT.