orange_sadona

     Have you ever wondered when a couple breaks up who because of jealousy who is really to blame.   Is it the one who feels the jealousy or is it the one that triggered it?    I have been seeing the same man for about 5 years and now I am starting to have some doubts about his feelings to me.  Lately I have been feeling of jealous of the time he has been spending with a friend of mine.   I love this lady very much.   In many ways she is closer to me that my own sisters, but recently my man has forgotten a couple things we were to do together.  
     The last time when I called him to see where he was and why he had not met me as he was supposed to, I heard my friend’s voice in the background.   I do not think she was at his house.   I think they were on Skype together.   I think that is why he allowed the time to catch up with him, and he missed our meeting.   When she spoke it pulled his attention away from my call and to her.   It was then that I realized he had been talking to her and that was why he had forgotten me.   They are involved in some type of on line gaming together I think, so it may have had something to do with that.   At least that is what I told myself the first time this happened, and now it has happened again.
     I know I am not always an easy person to get along with and as a result of this I have had relationships part from me in the past.   I an a little insecure when it comes to matters of love, and my relationships have not always been good ones.   I just do not know if it is all in my head this time or if my man is losing interest in me and finding it in my friend.    She may not even notice the things I have as I do not think she would ever betray me if she knew it.   She has been a really good friend to me for years.   I do not think she is after my man,   however the thought crosses my mind when things like this happen, that he may be getting interested in her.
     It would hurt very much if I lost him, especially if it was to one of my friends, but I have learned long ago you can not make someone stay with you if their heart is elsewhere.   I only wish I knew if what I feel is happening or if it is all in my head.   It would not be beyond the scope of possibilities for me to overreact to something I see or hear.
     If anyone has any thoughts on this I would not be opposed to hearing them.