jane_and.the_dragon

THE BOX OF ROCKS

2019.07.28

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I will never be a famous poet but this is from my heart.

THE BOX OF ROCK

By jane_and.the_dragon in 2019

I was cleaning my closet today

And found a small box I had tucked away

It was sent to me

From a place I will never see

A friend sent me the pack

But now I just wish I had her back

She did not die

But losing her made me cry

At the time I was too hurt to see

What a few angry words would cost me

We had a fight and my words cut deep

She left my life without another peep

You cannot make things better

If they will not accept your letter

One cannot fix a bad mistake

If messages from you they will not take

Losing a friend hurts it is true

And you know there is nothing you can do

To make things right

When you have a pointless fight

So take my advice

To be extra nice

When your friends make you mad

Because if you lose them you will be sad

I SAW THIS AND THOUGHT YEP THAT IS EXACTLY RIGHT. I just wish people would realize we are all the same. We all need to put the emotions of the past behind us and learn from their mistakes. No one alive today was alive then to have actually felt any of those emotions, or the pain. I seriously doubt there is even anyone alive today that actually knew anyone who was alive then. PEOPLE CAN NOT GROW AND EVOLVE IF THEY ARE STUCK IN THE PAST WITH SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO SOMEONE GENERATIONS BACK. Remember your family that sacrificed back then, and honor their memory. Do you really think trying to get things you never earned for things you never endorsed honors your ancestors ? And again I blame the media for the issues between people today. They do not make it about what ever the person did or did not do, as they should. They make it about someones race or color , BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT MAKES PEOPLE TUNE IN. IT IS ALL ABOUT THE RATINGS. They would rather stir people up to fight with one another over something as unimportant as the color of their skin, rather then build people up for the good they do.

HARD DECISION

2019.07.20

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Today I had to make a hard decision. My brother called me to remind me they are putting my nephew's ashes in the family plot. He wanted to know if I was going and if I wanted a ride with him. I told him I did not think I was going. Part of me really wanted to go to be there for my other nephew he and his kids are all that is left of my brothers family. BUT part of me remembers what happened when we buried my brother. My anxiety was high, and I had a bad anxiety attack at the grave side.

I am worried that it could happen again if i go to the cemetery this time of year, because the things that triggered it last time are still there. I do not feel it would be fair to my nephew if I went an had an attack, because my nephew's wife would shift her attention to me. I really think the attention needs to be on my nephews, and I would not do anything to change that. I did not used to have problems going to the crematory when I was younger, but the fact is it started being hard when a couple trailers were put in near the grave yard. It got harder after my mom died. Then my brother died. I realllllllly should go more often then I do, but it is emotionally draining for me and I am sure a pain to my family when I lose my control. I think it is better for me to stay home and think about him as I have done many times sense his death.

My nephew was way too young when he died and he never had any children, but one of his nephews kinda look like him. n0.gif?v=122

It always knew my nephew would die too young. n1.gif?v=122

Even when he was a baby he spent more then his share of time in and out of hospitals, and every time he went in I worried. I really hope my family will not be mad at me for not going, but after much thinking I think this is for the best all around .

WAY TOO HOT

2019.07.16

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We got a heat wave heading our way and fair warning to everyone I know when the heat rises above 90 it does not take much irritation to make me go off. I have little patience for alleged adults that whine around worse then a 4 year old. If you want to gripe at me about something you think is wrong, YOU BETTER MAKE SURE YOU ARE RIGHT first. I really get annoyed with people that think the world revolves around them. ( Everyone know the world really revolves around me n0.gif?v=122

lol.) <<< little joke, but seriously how are you going to get upset about something not doing something for you that you yourself decline to do for them. Have you never heard of one hand washing the other, or give and take?

Here is a better quote for you DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU. That is a good one, because I have found people tend to treat you the way you treat them. If you do not like how something is going WORK TO CHANGE IT do not just sit around and complain about it. I firmly believe all things are possible if people work together to change them.

Now on a slightly different idea, How do you keep from going off on an adult that is throwing a temper tantrum like a kid, because if you do you will look like a child yourself. Sometimes I just want to grab some of the people in my life and shake them till their brains kick back into gear lol.

I really hate this very hot weather because when I get hot little things annoy me. I know what you are going to say get an ac, but the fact is I really do not want one. IN MY OPINION AND THIS IS MY OPINION: air conditioners are part of the reason everything is so hot now. Also people have forgotten that being exposed to hot weather will allow your blood to thin and you will not notice it as badly as someone who is in ac al the time and then goes out into the hot summer sun. You may not notice it cause you are on the inside but window air conditioners put a lot of heat back into the air outside, so you need more ac and it gets hotter it is a bad circle. Same way with clothes dryers. Hanging out clothes will help cool the air by releasing moisture into it, but driers put out hot air heating things up more. Have you ever stood near a clothes line on a windy summer day? The air coming off it is cooler then the air around it. Did I mention when it is hot my brain rambles on more lol.

I WAS THINKING.

2019.07.15

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I was thinking about what makes a person look bigger then their actual size. Many people think they can make themselves look bigger by putting others down. People that are really worthy of being looked up to know you do not need to put someone down to make yourself look taller. The biggest people in the world are not tall or famous. They are those that go out of their way to help others when they need someone to help hold them up when they are falling. The biggest person I know is barely 5 ft tall, but what she does for everyone in her life puts her high on a pedestal to those that love her. She was there when I was frightened when I was in the hospital. She bakes treats for friends to make them smile. She helps take care of her grandchildren so her daughter can work.

What is most amazing is she will drop what she is doing if her family or friends want her to do something with them. She asks for no pay in return for all the things she does for so many people out of love. I am not sure if all those she helps really understand how wonderful her giving heart is. I wonder if they have any idea how much more empty their lives would be without her. I am reminded of the movie It's a Wonderful Life do you all remember the line ( each life touches so many other's if they are not there it leaves a terrible whole.) I know if she was never in my life there would be a huge whole in my life.

I have been very lucky. I have several wonderful loving people in my life. I look up to them all. I know only too well people do not have to do anything for you they do not want to, and I have several people that love me enough to help me when I need it.

I look at some people who live for nothing more then to make others as sad as they themselves are. If we would all try to make someone else's lives just a little better, we would make our own lives better. Good deeds always come back to you 10 fold, if you are patient and keep doing good, good will come back to you. In closing never judge a man by the size or shape of their body, but rather by the good in their hearts.

Pool 8 - 2009

THE BOX OF ROCKS

OTHER EYES

HARD DECISION

WAY TOO HOT

I WAS THINKING.