jane_and.the_dragon

After 3 years I have finally found a way to get this loop monitor taken out. I will have a visit with the doctor late Nov to see about having it done. I have to go clear to Morgantown Wv, but it will be worth it to have this thing gone. I never really wanted it. I allowed a fast talking doctor and my baby brother to talk me into allowing it to be put in. I wish i had followed my instincts and said no, but my baby brother's oppinion carries a lot of sway with me. He is rarely wrong, and even when he is it is even rarer for him to admit it. lol Fact is there is not a lot he could not talk me into if he tried.This year has sucked as bad as 2016. That year we lost 3 family members in one year. We already lost one of my sisters this year. I really did not want to take the chance of me dyeing on the table, when i get my valve surgery, so I pushed that back till after the first of the year. It is bad enough we have to spend Christmas without our sister; I did not want to totally ruin Christmas for them this year. Well that is what I am telling everyone, but there is another factor at play in my decision. IF I do not make it out of the hospital I selfishly wanted 1 last holiday with my family. I wanted to be with them. I miss my sister a lot. I talked to her nearly every day, and now she is gone. (Can you tell my emotions are everywhere these days?)