jane_and.the_dragon

One of the best lines in A Christmas Carol is when Bob Cratchet asks his wift to drink to Mr Scrooges health and she says, I WILL DO IT FOR YOU SAKE AND THE SAKE OF THE SEASON. I realized tonight that many people do and say things at Christmas that they would not normaly do, just so someone else may be happier. Which is over all not a bad thing, but at what cost to their own mental help?
I will give you an example. I have a nephew who moved out of state because he got a GREAT JOB about a year ago, so he only fomes home once or twice a year. Then he spends more time with the friends he left behing then with his family that miss him a lot, I know this because, I am one of the people that miss him. We want him to have a nice visit, so even thought we would rather he spend more time with us , we do not give him a hard time about it FOR THE SAKE OF THE SEASON. We all get the wanting to spend time with frinds you have not seen in a while, but I personally think the time should be devided a bit mor evenly between friends and family,but i keep it to myself FOR THE GOOD OF THE SEASON.
Friend s get tied up in their own lives shat they want and what makes them happy this time of year with no time for me and I pretend it does not hurt , because I want them to be happy even if my feeilings are hurt. I want them to be happy even if I feel neglected inside by what they do FOR THE GOOD OF THE SEASON.
I have already gotten a few nice presents for Christmas, and a couple were expensive. Thing is what I would rather have is a family gathering for christmas we have not been able to have one sense this covid crap started, and this year my neice has covid,and my sister fell and will be in a recovery home for at least a couple weeks :( My sisters and brother are getting older and I like to see them as much as I can. My oldest sister used to visit me every holiday, but with the health issues she and her huaband have I hardly ever see them anymore. My sister that is in a rehab place for her knee is on oxygen so even when she is well she does not go many places but to dializes, and she NEVER says I love you to me even though i say it to her every time. One I love you from her would be more valuable then a hundred dollar present to me. She does buy really nice presents. That may her way of showing love, but I would much rather ACTUALLY HERE her say it atleast once before one of us die.
I will be glad after the first of the year December is always hard for me, has been sense my Grandpa died on Christmas morning 1969.