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قام بالانضمام: 2014-06-06
REVENGE IS A DISH BEST SURVED COLD. COLD LIKE MY HEART HAS TURNED.
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ALWAYS BE YOURSELF

   I have a theory:   No matter who wants you to change who you are you should always be who you are.   Those that love us will sometimes try to change us.  If someone you love gives you some good advice, there is nothing wrong with taking it.  However if someone you love DEMANDS you change something anything about your self just because they want you to I think it may be a good idea to take a long hard look at what their motives were.   I had a man in my life about a decade ago and he tried to change me.   I loved him and wanted to be what he wanted me to be.   It was the worst mistake of my life, because the me he wanted me to be was not in keeping with the me I was meant to be.   It caused so much upheaval in my feelings and personality that it made me suicidal.   If not for the intervention of another friend who has always accepted me for who I am even when I get wound up and crazy I would not be here today sharing my thoughts with you all.   I would be in our family plot with my parents, my sister and now my brother.  
     If someone wants you to change to real you it is imperative you do not just do it blindly.   You need to look deeper and see what they would get if you did make those changes, and then be yourself.  Be the you  that you were always meant to be, because bottom line is when everyone you have ever loved or ever THOUGHT loved you have either moved on or died you will only have you to live with.   It is important when it is just you and yourself that you can stand to be around yourself.   My ex had me so messed up i did not see anything left to live for.   Two events changed that.   The first was the second friend I mentioned who to this day I still love like a brother.  He was there to show me everything was not what I thought it was.  That helped me hold on to the life I was about to throw away.   The second event ironically enough was the betrayal of another friend.     She had also been there for me at some bad times and I trusted her completely right up until the day she betrayed me.   You see I did not know it at the time but she herself had gotten into one of those relationships where she allowed another to change her, and to please this other person she betrayed my trust in the worst way possible.
     I crashed down mentally for around a half and hour I had no concept of anything going on around me or of even being in this world at all.   About a half an hour according to the lost time when I looked at the clock. I emerged from the mental collapse.   It was as if I had woken up from a long sleep into a different world.   Little by little I started noticing changes in my personality.   Well they were changes from what they had been since I had met my ex, but I began to realize the changes were the real me waking back up.   It was as if the real me had been asleep and someone else had been walking around in my life pretending to be me.   I no longer saw things the way the person my ex had changed me into saw them.   I saw things the way I had before I met him, and I have never one time thought about killing myself again.   I also decided that day that I WOULD NEVER LET THAT HAPPEN AGAIN!   Like it or now I will NEVER change who I am to please someone else unless I myself think it would be better FOR ME.  
     I think everyone should be themselves and if those in their life do not like it, that is their problem not yours, because bottom line is YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH YOURSELF and no one else.  ALWAYS BE YOURSELF.